To and Fro

Miss you too..

2011-04-25T12:07:00.000-07:00

Today I'll be gone
Dont you dare feel alone
Sing a song if you miss me
Dream a dream, dance with me

I 'll follow the sun
through valley of gods
through sands of time
through whirlpool of thoughts

I'll be back again in a day or two
and of course I'll miss you too..

Random

2010-01-22T09:06:00.000-08:00

when I remember you, when I used to
the sun did never set, without whiskey blues
no lullaby's did help, and ciggarattes too
I drank the pain, tried to puff it too
when I remebered you, when I use to

I tried to forget you, even succeded at last.
collected everything I had, hid it in the dark
swear'd never to find, even if getting gets hard
then I never remembered you, never did I thought

I didnt ever remember you, never did I thought
never thought about you, or your saying "whatttt"
never did your picture crossed my mind
I got busy, for some lucky dime's
I bid my farewell, they say never say goodbye

I hope you never be back, from your dreamland
I have learned to live, this world does no good.
here they party all night, with cool hood
enemies are trustworthy, than your best friend
Poker faces all around, where ever I went.

Life is never the same, with the lessons learned
I lost all the courage, through teens that I earned
It just moves on, so mercilessly
Just learn to fake a smile, with everybody that is
for everybody that was, they all do the same.

But,

I still remember you, Yes sometimes I do
when days go cold, night turns dark
when I drink heavily and sleep with a heavy heart
there's a place called neverland, dont know where it is
its nothing less than heaven, heavens I cant see
there I can see you, at some point in time
where there's nobody else, when there's nobody else
Emptiness all around, like inside of me.

D-DAY

2008-10-23T23:34:00.001-07:00

The story is of today. Today is such an experience to write about. Experience about not accepting things as they are and enjoying the funny side of every situation

As they say if life doesnt makes you laugh then its just that you are not getting the joke.

Today was horrible from the very begining, I mean I couldnt think of what good can come out of such a day for those who believe in badluck would have stayed inside and closed all doors and windows may I would have done the same. It started off by my maid waking me up from a dream, a very beautiful dream like the on es that are there in months or so and that too at the climax. What followed was, when I switched on my laptop the display was gone there goes my work in junk man now overtime on weekdays life is gonna be in deep shit. Hmmm I ordered a pizza and a pepsi, and as I opened the pepsi bottle Woooosssh every thing was on the floor, now I had to mop too :(( . The lights went off and I thought going to the shop downstairs but as soon as I locked the door, I realized I forgot the key inside. Now that was hell I was locked inside for 2 hours till my roommate came back from office

As I had already suffered that much I decided I need to enjoy today I took my credit card and went out. I went to oxford and bought some interesting books and as much needed serotonin (thats a pleasure giving harmone) I bought Tarot Cards I have been longing for since I was in Class 10. Now the icing on the cake there was a fashion show going on and I went to it with my friend and It was a treat to watch, a nice experience and we ate good we drank good and made merry.

Moral :: If life is throwing lemons at you make a lemonade and NJOY

Just Another Random Thought

2008-10-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

Aadatan tumne kar diye waade
Aadatan humne aitbaar kiya!

Teri raahon main ruk ke kai baar
Humne aapna hi intzaar kiya!

Ab na maangenge zindagii ya raab
Yeh gunah humne aakhri baar kiya!

Wait!

2008-10-12T07:41:00.001-07:00

So long is this wait
Wait Jus to hear your voice
Wait Jus to read your mail
Wait Jus to be at your side
wait Jus thinking you in my mind

So long I waited
Baby I cant wait no more
Riding on this boat
I am searchin for new shores
Where the silence serene speaks out loud
Where the orange skies are all around
Where flowers blosom no matter spring or autumn
Where there is rain with thundering sounds

But Alas!
What use is a such a place without you
What is in the silence what is in the sound
what is in the skies and everything thats around
Who can feel the blosoms and the thundering rains
Without you everything is dust of the plains

So I will wait for one more time
I will wait for you this last time
Maybe you will come, Maybe I will leave you behind
But Baby I will wait for you this last time.

-- Copyright Material "Rahil Dhunna" 2008

A Late Night Philosophical Chat

2008-10-05T13:15:00.000-07:00

Status Message :: Ping me but Answer my Questions

me: ping

nishu: whats the biggest truth of life

12:29 AM me: its an illusion but a persistent one

next plz

nishu: whats the best and the worst thing about this illusion

12:31 AM me: best -- its persistent

12:32 AM worst -- when u realize its an illusion

nishu: if this is an illusion thn wats the real deal

12:33 AM me: some people care for u

really

very less in number

but they do

12:34 AM nishu: what would you term as life fully lived?

12:37 AM me: complicated

12:38 AM i would say have something worth dying for

only then u can live ur life fully

nishu: have u found that something yet

me: NO

12:40 AM nishu: why r ppl fake?

me: fear makes them fake

fear of not being accepted

12:41 AM nishu: and y do they want to be acepted

me: by nature humans are social

and they are choosy too

12:42 AM nishu: as in

me: every body wants to hang around with people who r popular and "cool"

12:43 AM and popular and "cool" with in are insecure to widen their circle

12:44 AM sometimes they are just tryin to hide, hide behind a popular curtain from their past

12:45 AM their maybe a lot other reasons

but everything can be backtracked to fear

12:46 AM u want more...

12:47 AM when we are kids we are told to behave in front of guests why do we do that fear of parents

12:48 AM when we go to school we study hard even if we dont want to fear of not being successful

12:49 AM when we are in college we in college we go for a GF or pick up drinking and all coz otherwise we wont be cool

and so on

so we fake

nishu: is being materialistic a good option?

12:51 AM me: untill u attain a certain level of financial security its not being materlistic. Everyone has his own level of satisfaction. after that u should invest in people and relationships though

12:53 AM one should be materlistic in a way but not attached with materials "Everything comes with an expiry date these days"

12:54 AM next plz

12:55 AM nishu: when is a man said to be at peace with himself

12:56 AM me: When he knows what he is worth and is satisfied with that

12:57 AM next

u are too slow

nishu: Is life worth living?

1:00 AM me: I know this world is not worth living but once you are born u cant refuse to inherit it with all the good and bad that comes. Wheather life is worth living or not depends on your indivisual life and how much you expect from it. Not everyone can become great. But we all can be good. Being good is what makes it worth living

1:01 AM nishu: wat do think abt instant gratification

1:02 AM me: BULL SHIT

nishu: are u nt a slave to it?

1:07 AM me: A lot of us fancy to be hereos. Everybody wants to be harry potter nobody wants the pain. Everybody wants to go to heaven nobody wants to die. I believe everything in life has a price tag with it. Cost not only material but emotional physical and physcological. If u can pay the price u can achieve it. But if you want to wait for your Guardian angel or Fairy God Mother to come. You can go and join that Club. The sooner become independent in life, better.

nishu: why is punjabi music awwwsum

1:08 AM me: because its our mother toungue

1:09 AM u can shout in english when u r high but when we are down we cry in our mother tongue. its what soothes us

1:10 AM nishu: why do i loove to drnk str8 frm a 2 ltrr bottle whn i can pour a cold drink in a glass and drink

1:12 AM me: Its human evolution even if we are only thirsty and cannot gulp 2 ltrs at a time the satisfaction of having the rest for later use is there. Holding a 2 ltr bottle gives u the pleasure that it will never runout before queching ur thirst.

while a glass can leave u unsatisfied

1:13 AM nishu: why is anupam kher bald

me: dandruff maybe :P

1:14 AM nishu: do blondes have blond pubic hair too?

1:15 AM me: color of the hair is due to chemical and mineral content of the body. So they should

nishu: why r indians nt blond

1:16 AM me: who said I know 3 indian 2 girls and a boy who are blonde

nishu: majority i mean

me: maybe something in our genetic structure

nishu: why are blondes and sardars the victims

1:17 AM me: Because they are the only ones with courage to laugh at jokes aimed at them

would u?

nishu: whats the idea of a perfect world

1:18 AM me: Perfection is a fantasy. Its made so that you can criticize everything. It means nothing more than constant improvement

P.S.: These are instantaneous views of the writer and if anyone in anyway find these hurting him. Im Sorry. Rest there are grammatical mistakes don't bother about them.

My Retirement Day!!

2008-10-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

I had a class on Time-Management with Dennis-Grant of CW Solutions and I am pretty bad at it. Though one thing I liked about the same was when he asked me to write my retirement speech and suddenly I was blank. I had not thought much about it lately. I mean what the heck I am joining a job and somebody asks what you gonna be in some 40 yrs, man thats a scary thought.

Well its still time to plan that much and I think I wont worry about that for another year thats the time I gave to myself which may be extended as and when required. Well since I had nothing planned and had to write I thought I should write about something very big as I say

"Dream for the STARS...... At least U will reach the TREE-TOP"

and also tried adding a little humor to it.

Ok this is what I came up with:

"I am here to congratulate Mr. Dhunna {me :P} as he retires this wonderful evening.
He is just Awesome. His story has inspired many novels and movies.

Rahil has been one of the founding members of this company and we all will remember him for what he meant to us. I still remember when times were bad and our last venture ended up in a Chapter 11 Bankruptcy. We stood beside each other. Drank till we dropped. Cried till there was no sorrow and like a phoenix rose up from our ashes.

Rest Gentlemen is History.
Besides being dedicated and sincere to his work, Rahil also has devoted himself to many social causes. He is kind of man that finds humor in every situation and enjoys whatever he does, working with him has been a awesome experience.

We bid adieu today, as he retires at 45 but we know he just a phone-call away

Thank you Rahil"

:D :P Fun Na

Deeper than my Heart [A Hard Day's Night's Job]

2008-09-22T12:08:00.001-07:00

Deep in my Heart is Deep
But Deeper are your Eyes.

First time when I looked at them
All I saw was Life.
Sometimes I saw them Cry and Sometimes they Smiled.
Sometimes all I want to do, Is be at your side.

Sometimes when you laugh
I can see a world in there
I can see Sun Shining
I can see the Flair
I can see People Dancing, in the Thundering Rains

Sometimes when You are Angry
Clouds begin to Thunder
They go Red and I go Yellow
and Everyone begins to wonder

Some times when You go Sad
They are like Autumn in winter

Sometimes when you Cry
I can see Pearls Dropping
Your Eyes go Cloudy and It all gets Blurred
But I can see that Rain, I can feel the Pain

Sometimes when I am there by your side
Sometimes when I see myself there in your eyes
I think
Maybe its your Heart, that's seen through Your Eyes
I hope its your Heart, that's reflected in Your Eyes

Someday You will understand what You mean to Me
Someday I will understand what I feel for You

Till then all I can do is to, Wait for that Time
Till then all I can do is to, Look into those Eyes
So Deep are your Eyes
Someday I'll drown in your Eyes

Deep in my Heart is Deep
But Deeper are those Eyes.

Baz Luhrmann: Wear SUNSCREEN

2008-02-29T19:10:00.000-08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, of the class of '99.
Wear Sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.
Oh, never mind.
You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.
But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future.
Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind.
The kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.
Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy.
Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.
The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive.
Forget the insults.
If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters.
Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.
Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees.
You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either.
Your choices are half chance.
So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body.
Use it every way you can.
Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.
It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines.
They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents.
You never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings.
They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths:
Prices will rise.
Politicians will philander.
You, too, will get old.
And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund.
Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse.
But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia.
Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

Unedited

2008-02-18T13:26:00.001-08:00

12:11 AM 2/13/2008am

Am I strong or am I weak

I think I m strong enough but how much of it is enough I donno.
Maybe I am just cold as a rock maybe I am just too much distant or rather I say detached. Maybe this is what I am every one has a low time maybe I am going through the phase may be that phase will be over soon, But will it be all over by itself no I don’t think so but there are too many maybes, all conditions and constraints that just should not be there.
I don’t want to do anything I just want a nice long vacation but how long is enough I donno. Why don’t I know anything? I don’t even know if I am wrong or right maybe this is life maybe it’s ought to be this way and maybe I don’t know what I want from it I don’t want to sound like an average confused guy but again maybe its only bcoz I wanna run away from reality but I was not always like this then what happened why am I behaving in such a manner.
Maybe there is something missing ya there is something missing and that something maybe the essence of the recipe of my life and I know I have to find that something but how can one find something without even knowing what it is
so I should first find out what it is ya understanding the problem is often seventy percent of the solution but then again its not such an easy part but I know I m good at chasing and there is no feeling like the one u get in chasing a dream not even the one u get on accomplishment I don’t even know what I m writing or why I m doing so but something right inside of wants me to do that
So I start the quest today, but again will I
I think focus is fifty percent of my problem nobody lets me focus. Everyone wants his share of my time to do this or to do that, I donno when was the last time I sat down and did something meaningful for my life all did is njoy the moment though I don’t feel guilty of that as I have enjoyed them fully but yet again I don’t feel guilty of a lot wrongs I do. Life would have been so simple for a guy like me only if he didnt had the conscience well I am not telling it like that I am a sinner or something but I know I have done a lot wrongs taken a lot of wrong decisions and put myself in jeopardy many a times
But I am also that kind of asshole who always finds a best way escape and keep his hands clean
I know I want to be big, but yet again I want to find the essence to my life I want to live grandly I don’t want to be really wealthy yet I am somewhat greedy in this case u can say that I want more than enough and add a bit more to that. I am not a great writer I don’t write so that people will say wow I write bcoz it helps me and yet again another of my traits I am a bit selfish too. I donno if I had some good qualities too but ya like I don’t like abandon somebody at a low I don’t like to turn down friends and I don’t like to quarrel it just makes my clothes dirty. and I don’t like to keep smiling, man its my life if am I down why should I smile why all these masks why cant I show what he really wants to be like right now I donno what I want to do Man this analytical and rational nature gets on my nerves sometimes I want to do something’s in rage yes I really want to b coz it has been a long time since I have done something that way and I know maybe I will regret it or worse regret it with a few broken bones but sometimes u can be happy in pain not in sorrow but in pain that’s why some people like to hurt themselves it really does the trick if u r feeling too low Maybe I am developing suicidal tendencies no I am not I am gr8 fan of life not only of living it but living it alive I just want a goal for right now and some preliminary goal-reaching-starters-kit ya maybe I am too unoccupied maybe I am not just doing anything. I know this thing is doing the trick for me but again I don’t want to compromise maybe I am too lost and will continue later

Till then I will search for a goal